Your Killer Is Your Healer
As you contemplate your painting in the days, weeks, and months following its completion, you may become aware of a deeper message lurking at its edges, or you may be overtaken by a sudden rush of comprehension, a spine-tickling “aha” that washes over you as every element comes together to make perfect sense. You may receive a vision of your life’s progression in perfect clarity or be overwhelmed with answers to life-altering questions. You may recognize a past issue that you had either “forgotten” or refused to deal with that is calling out for resolution and completion. If you are still somewhat skeptical even though you’ve completed your first painting, these aftershocks of recognition and insight will help you accept the magic of your process and your spiritual connection.
One final, and reluctantly executed, image in an early painting of mine showed a dagger thrust into the neck of a spirited horse. I thought it represented a castrating aspect of my own nature. Then, more than a year later, I gazed at the painting with a friend who was viewing it with a fresh eye. I realized that the horse appeared decidedly happy, its head held high in unaffected pride. The dagger in his neck was not going in but coming out. It struck me that the dagger coming out of the horse was healing my traumatic tonsillectomy at age four, and that this goddess on her horse was a jolt of self-empowerment.